I want to bottle this feeling.

I have no plan for this post. I'm writing what i'm feeling right now because right now, I have the truest feeling of happiness, excitement, and anxiety all at the same time. Yesterday at work we got an order for a mug, for the training center where my husband would be attending boot camp.

It gave me chills.

We've been anxiously awaiting a call from the Coast Guard recruiter. I felt like, hey. Maybe this is  a sign. Maybe something is about to happen.

Today. Something happened.

I feel like i'm shaking everywhere, but this is an answered prayer. Today hasn't been the best.

We've been plagued with a few bits of bad news, but this fixed it.

We got coffee together, to try & cheer ourselves up, and that worked, and this made it above & beyond better. While getting coffee I had this thought, a stream of consciousness.

I hope that we always find joy in the little things together, like going to get coffee whenever something disappointing happens. That's kind of our thing.

Today we heard our Volvo was ready. We also heard, that it was going to be more expensive than our plan, and more money than we have. So we talked, went and got coffee together, laughed, talked about the future, and laughed at bad drivers. Things smoothed out.

We found a way to get the car today.

And we heard back from the recruiter.

Dyllon got the call.

We're going to have our official appointment.

I'm so nervous. I'm anxious. I'm happy, and excited.

This is huge! And i'm sure this big thought bubble that i'm writing may not make any sense, but this is the first. The first real movement in the direction of a huge life change. A journey that's only beginning for Dyllon and I. And though it's mostly about Dyllon, and I am just his loving wife, proudly supporting him through all of these big things I feel so included in all this.

I feel like i'm beaming from within my soul. He hasn't taken his first test or signed his first paper yet and i'm already proud of him. Proud of him for following his dreams, for going for what he wants and being willing to fearlessly make a change that could effect every aspect of his future.

I'm proud of him for trusting me, when I say i'll be okay and that i'm going to back up every choice he makes, and really stand by him when the storms get heavy.

I'm proud of him, for believing in this country, and being willing to serve for this country. For following God's beaten path, and reassuring me that we've got this. That this is going to be something that we will really really appreciate one day.

I was afraid before and i'm afraid now. I know that this is going to be hard, but it's also going to be fun. We're going to travel, and learn new things, meet new people. We're also going to learn about ourselves. Our marriage will grow in strength and trust in our times of stress and time apart. I'm prepared for all of that. It will be nothing like I imagine, until I live it. But i'm willing to take that chance.

I'm not even going to say "and if it doesn't happen..." realistically, because I have such a peaceful reassurance from the Lord. This is it. Where we're going. What we're doing. He's leading us on our path. My heart is full, quivering, and happy.

Cheers to the start.