Active Series

Remember when I said I'd write when I was frustrated.

Right now I am.

& the fact that it's nothing I can control makes it more frustrating quite frankly.

I've tried so hard for so long to be a runner & though I know this isn't the end of the line, it still feels like coming up short. 

Shin splints are something that are hard for me to describe. 

I get the posterior kind, which basically hurt the inner sides of your shins. To me it feels like pressure every time I walk, to the point where they feel like they might explode. 

I don't get them every time I run.

But when I do, oh man.

It's annoying when I want to run, but at the same time I don't mind it because it reminds me of what i'm overcoming to be a better me. 

I used to just pray for the best whenever I injured myself, but now i'm dedicated.

I am truly passionate about my health at this point so i'm going to do whatever I can to improve my well being. 

Today I bought these.

I read reviews ALL DAY about these guys. They weren't cheap insoles, but if they help me, it's worth it. I'll be sure to update regarding that situation.  I'll try anything at this point to keep me running. It's all I ever want to do.

I have this mind-set regarding rest days that I should really overcome.

I feel like any time I take a day off that i'm instantly going to go back to being as big or bigger than I was before. I know it isn't logical, but it's just me not thinking clearly, and reasonably. 

It sucks sometimes but I think it's something that keeps me moving forward as well. 

Here goes nothing.